But I still haven't found what I'm looking for..
Having thought about this for some time it occurs to me that others may be thinking the same thing. Some, on the other hand have found it and will totally understand the quest. That is, the quest to find what we are looking for. Let the final words of that song by the group U2 sink in for a moment:
"You broke the bonds and you loosed the chains, carried the cross of my shame, Oh my shame you know I believe it.
But I still haven't found what I'm looking for, but I still haven't found what I'm looking for"
I believe that mankind searches to find its creator and when it does and it connects for all the right reasons, then there is fulfillment of heart and spirit. That hole we tried so hard to fill with everything else is now filled with an understanding of the price paid for our freedom, and in us comes love, mercy and grace toward our fellow man.
When that comes there is a natural need to seek out relationship and that purpose we feel God has planted inside of us to find. Taking U2's song a step further, we can find that fulfillment and yet feel But I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For! Reason is simple, we need each other and God in his infinite wisdom saw that when he created man. If God meant for our only purpose to be to understand Him and worship Him then there would have only been an Adam.
At times, especially after my son Paul's death, this feeling has haunted me. At his life celebration I said that he had found what he was looking for in his lovely wife, sons and friends, that feeling of belonging, fellowship and love. Since that time there is something missing in me and I must admit I have questioned exactly what I am looking for. Not something to fill that missing piece, but something that is like what he felt.
U2's point, you can have a complete understanding of Jesus, and a relationship with him, and still feel disconnected from relationship of a human kind and also a sense of loss of what your purpose is. And the quest to find it, if we are missing it, is an honest and sincere journey
to connect the dots of life. It is the will of God hidden behind some mysterious door we haven't opened.
If you are like me, and sing those words every so often, then you too can be comforted by these words of scripture.......ASK!
Ask and it will be given to you
Seek and you will find it
Knock and the door will be opened to you
Then we will together find what we have been looking for!
Glenn is an ex-Marine Viet Nam vet who is also a recovering alcoholic, clean and sober for 30 years. He has been involved in start up and ongoing recovery ministry at North Atlanta Church and Campus for the last two decades. He has a passion for outreach and to spread the message that the answer to lasting and fulfilling recovery from addiction is in a relationship with Jesus Christ. He and the ATB team are available to assist in your questions or needs on an individual basis and will do so maintaining complete confidentiality. You may e-mail him at firstname.lastname@example.org.