Triggers

A trigger on a gun does nothing until someone fires it. It takes a human act of the will to make it a weapon of self defense or of destruction. It takes a conscious decision to put it into practice so to speak.

David, a man after God's own heart, the slayer of the giant Goliath, the person who killed the lion and bear with his bare hands, the highly decorated warrior and chosen one to be King, fired a trigger that set off a chain reaction of destruction even though his heart was good.  He saw something he wanted (Bathsheba) and went after her without any regard for the cost because after all, he was King.

Some might say his trigger was a naked woman bathing, but in fact it was described in these words: In the spring when kings go off to war....but David remained in Jerusalem. He was so used to the battle, but for whatever reason (tired maybe, fed up with war, needing something different) he stayed behind. When he became restless he awoke and took a walk on the roof of the palace. What he saw, he immediately wanted.

In the A.A. Big Book it says this: When I am unwilling to do the right thing, I become restless. irritable, and discontent. It is always my choice. I need much more than a blog on this (see me at ATB Raw this Monday for more) but David was all three of these when he sent his men to go get her, knowing it was wrong but knowing (here comes THE TRIGGER) he was lonely.

But then, as in all cases when a trigger leads an addict to use (even after years clean), there was a cover up, destruction toward another man, death in his family and a spirit that changed him from a mighty warrior of great faith to a whimpy broken king. Until he repented, until he surrendered, until he realized he had no control over his desires, he was lost.

More to come Monday but ponder on this as to how he got his groove back, and how we can get ours: But thou O Lord are a shield around me, you are the lifter of my head. We need a shield between us and that bad decision to pull the trigger, that's called the Holy Spirit that utters three prophetic words to us in the heat of the moment very loudly:

NO, NO, NO! Then, what choice will we make? Have you surrendered to the process yet or are you still taking nights off to relapse when you should be battling against this addiction?